the good the bad and the ugly

I feel very calm and productive. this past week i have stayed on top of my stuff and this relaxes me. i spent plenty of time in the practice room, i am singing great, and i have not let my homework pile up. i have also spent ample time with friends. I'm finding that I'm closer to people than i think i am. I'm gaining confidence and willing to walk up to fellow music majors and i find that they greet me now. i had three different negative instances this week.

1.) a neighbor of mine just moved in and she is a music major and her roommate is an English major. the graduated early from high school and just started college this semester. neither of them knew the other prior to moving in and they just hit it off. the two are very personable and extremely out going. the went door to door meeting everyone on the floor. when i met them they were talking about going to parties. i said that they aren't hard to come by because they happen every night i said to crystal the music Major that she wouldn't have much time for parties...i don't think she believed me. the week went on. me, my girlfriend Hollie, and her roommate Shawn were going up the elevator. I'm on floor two and they are on eight. i pressed the 2 and the 8 and when they we rent looking i pressed 3,4,5,6,7. i got off the elevator with the thought that they would just laugh about it and we could all go to bed seeing as it was midnight and we all had school the next day. that's not what hap pend. they came to my floor, knocked on my door and ran...harmless right? i go to see who it is. i open my door and look down the hall and see Rebbecca the English major in her pajamas in her door way. crystal came right up next to her with a stink eye nothing really happens i just apologize and we all go to our rooms. no big deal right? the next day in piano class i see crystal and apologize again in hopes to maintain our friendship...wrong thing to do! she says I'm still really mad about it. i think these damn girls are still in high school mode. we aren't the only ones making noise in fact we are probably the quietest. you see that's just how college is, its noisy. people get loud and part of the struggle is maintaining your focus. they just don't get it.

2.)i get back my first theory homework...no bueno. i did terrible Ive always been awesome at theory but i get this paper back and there is so much red on it that i looks kind of like just scratched it till it bled because it was so bad.

3.)probably the worst of all. Hollie and Shawn are best friends. they met each other shortly before we moved in for the fall. Shawn joined alpha phi. Hollie wanted to last semester but didn't get a bid. 5 days before spring move in Shawn texts Hollie and asks if she would be mad about Shawn moving in the the sorority house. there is tension between everyone. then Hollie gets a bid. Hollie opens up,after some convincing, to the idea of moving into the house with community bath rooms and less space. Shawn a week ago asks Hollie if she would want to move in and room with her. Hollie of course says yes and that is the agreement. Hollie asks her again on the day that Shawn is going to move in just before they go to get the paper work. Shawn says, "yeah i guess, but if you want your own room that's okay too." the get to fill out the paper work in the office and the RA asks if they want to room together and Shawn says that she wants her own room. in retrospect i remember Shawn going off with some of the a phi girls into another room i now know what was go in on. she was talking about how Hollie wants to room with her behind her back to the other sisters. after Shawn tells the RA about wanting her own room Hollie just says never mind and walks out about to cry. this really pisses me off because she was asked the exact same question from both Hollie and the RA and they were different answers. why did she have to embarrass her in front of the other girls or talk about her behind her back. we want to leave but we road over with Shawn. we couldn't just walk away because hollies stuff was in Shawn's car. long story short i confronted Shawn about it and Hollie got upset. they are on better terms than they were but the still need to talk.


there were also alot of good things that happened this week.

1.) i ran into an old friend from high school at a recital and last night him, his sister, Hollie, and i all went to the steak house for dinner last night.

2.) I'm going back home soon to go see my high school's musical. after me and a bunch of old friends are going out to eat.

3.)and of course Ive hung out with choir peeps.

4.)best of all i got a 30-day trial of finale notepad which is a score writing software that i can write music with. its alot of fun and fairly easy to use.

well i better start getting ready to leave i gotta pack church cloths.